Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Please pray for me

It has been a while since I have posted a blog on here. I am going through a difficult time in my life at the moment and ask you to please pray for me. As you know I believe in being authentic, but for a long time I have been struggling to live authentically and be true to myself and to God.

I am feeling confused at the moment, and even though I am entrusting myself to God's merciful love - I am still struggling. In some ways I feel upset with God for a few different reasons. I have tried so long to do everything I can to prove how much I love Him and want to serve Him, but it never seems to work out. It seems that on every level I have rejected in some way or another by God or the Church. Now I know that God doesn't reject us, especially when we have a humble and contrite heart (psalm 51) but I cannnot deny how I feel. It is a difficult thing to love and serve God when I feel rejected and unloved by Him.

Out of the depths I cry to you, O LORD!
O Lord, hear my voice!
Let your ears be attentive
to the voice of my pleas for mercy!

If you, O LORD, should mark iniquities,
O Lord, who could stand?
But with you there is forgiveness,
that you may be feared.

I wait for the LORD, my soul waits,
and in his word I hope;
my soul waits for the Lord
more than watchmen for the morning,
more than watchmen for the morning.

Israel, hope in the LORD!
For with the LORD there is steadfast love,
and with him is plentiful redemption.
And he will redeem Israel
from all his iniquities.
Psalm 130

Lord I believe but help my unbelief,
I love you but help me to love you more and more.

6 comments:

  1. Think about the relationship between Hope and Charity - just picture the hope that Job held onto despite all his tribulations.

    Make sure you go to the sacraments and try to find a good confessor from whom you can gain good spiritual direction.

    Good wishes,

    B.

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  2. Hi, I had tried to send you a email last week but i think i messed it up. After reading your request for prayer i have been praying daily for you. Tim

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    1. sorry for the late reply. you can email me at methodius2@hotmail.com if you still wish :)

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  3. May I ask you to pray for me as I will pray for you ?

    Wish Our Lord and Our Lady protect you, always.

    Friendly yours.

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    1. sorry for the late reply. thankyou for your prayers, they are very much appreciated

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