Ruminations of an Irascible Hermit.: Cor Jesu, amore vulneratum, consolator afflictorum et raptor cordium

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Cor Jesu, amore vulneratum, consolator afflictorum et raptor cordium - miserere nobis

The title is taken from 3 of the petitions from St John Eudes Litany to the Sacred Heart of Jesus

Heart of Jesus, wounded with love
Heart of Jesus, consoler of the afflicted
Heart of Jesus, ravisher of hearts

The reason why I am posting this is because my boyfriend and I just broke up this morning after a year and a half together. We’ve had many issues for months now.

We are both at different places in our lives. I am getting back into my faith after my retreat with the monks in New Norcia WA, and I think he could sense that so that was the final breaking point to push me away before he got hurt if I was to discern religious life again. Our relationship has been non sexual for a while now, and I think God was using this time to bring me back to practicing my faith, it was a way to prepare my to live as a celibate gay catholic.

Today when I got home after crying , I decided to pray the Divine Office - and lauds had everything that I needed. The reading for the day was from the letter of the Romans about nothing separating us from the love of Christ and that we are conquerors in all things through His love. Also the intercession were “stay with us Lord Jesus”

So I am accepting this breakup as part of God’s will for my life and to bring me back to Him. I am coming back to my faith after 6 years of falling away and living a sexual lifestyle. I have deleted all my hookup apps and website I had profiles on to keep me away from the temptation against chastity.

Please keep me in your prayers today that I can remain strong and continue trusting God, not growing despondent and as we prepare for the Feast of the Sacred Heart of Jesus that He may be able to console my aching heart.

No comments:

Disclaimer

Please note. I am a Catholic layman, not a qualified theologian or philosopher. What I say and write here are my own personal thoughts and ideas, although I always try to conform my writings to the Magisterium of the Church.

I- with firm faith believe and profess everything that is contained in the symbol of faith: namely,

I believe in one God, the Father, the Almighty, maker of heaven and earth, of all that is seen and unseen. I believe in one Lord, Jesus Christ, the only Son of God, eternally begotten of the Father, God from God, Light from Light, true God from true God, begotten, not made, one in Being with the Father. Through him all things were made. For us men and for our salvation he came down from heaven: By the power of the Holy Spirit, he was born of the Virgin Mary, and became man. For our sake he was crucified under Pontius Pilate; he suffered, died and was buried. On the third day he rose again in fulfillment of the Scriptures; he ascended into heaven and is seated at the right hand of the Father. He will come again in glory to judge the living and the dead, and his kingdom will have no end. I believe in the Holy Spirit, the Lord, the giver of life, who proceeds from the Father and the Son. With the Father and the Son he is worshipped and glorified. He has spoken through the Prophets. I believe in the one holy catholic and apostolic church. I acknowledge one baptism for the forgiveness of sins. I look for the resurrection of the dead, and the life of the world to come. Amen.

With firm faith I believe as well everything contained in God's word, written or handed down in tradition and proposed by the church--whether in solemn judgment or in the ordinary and universal Magisterium--as divinely revealed and called for faith.

I also firmly accept and hold each and every thing that is proposed by that same church definitively with regard to teaching concerning faith or morals.

What is more, I adhere with religious submission of will and intellect to the teachings which either the Roman pontiff or the college of bishops enunciate when they exercise the authentic Magisterium even if they proclaim those teachings in an act that is not definitive.