Monday, July 31, 2023

St Ignatius of Loyola - Master of Spiritual Direction and Exercises

Today is the memorial of St Ignatius of Loyola - teacher and master of the Spiritual Exercises. 


He has a fascinating conversion story after being injured in battle and having a broken leg. While in recovery, he was so bored that he had no other choice than to read some spiritual books. This kindled in him a desire for God and a passion to follow Jesus. Eventually he went on pilgrimage, spent time living in a cave, wrote spiritual meditations and studied for the priesthood. 

He is most famous for founding the Society of Jesus - the Jesuits. He was fundamental in the Counter Reformation in the Church that helped address the influence of Protestantism and heresy. A lot of our spiritual practices, terminology and understanding of Catholic spirituality come from him and are influenced by him. The practice of annual spiritual retreat comes from him, as well as the daily examen, and most importantly - discernment of spirits, which is used by all spiritual directors today. 

St Ignatius wrote a series of meditations and structured them into a 30 say retreat, these are known as his Spiritual Exercises. He teaches that as soldiers in the army of Christ, we are called to the battlefield of holiness and to give glory to God in loving him and in service to others. We can see God in all circumstances of our life and in all things, and as we cultivate this awareness we can use this to discern where God is calling or prompting us in our life. Our emotions are foundational in our spiritual life and can be integrated as we grow in holiness, however our feelings cannot always be trusted. The process of understanding our emotions, how they affect us, any motivations behind them that are good or bad, and how to evaluate what is from God and what is not of God - this is his Discernment of Spirits. The process involves a series of consolations and desolations that regularly need to be discerned, processed and lived out as we progress in the spiritual life and grow on holiness. 

Through seeing God in all things and finding God in all things, as contemplatives in action, we can be instruments of change for God to work in the world for our holiness, salvation and the good of others. The more that we are united to God and in conformity with His Will, the more alive we feel and the more real God becomes for us. All of this brings glory to God and is our ultimate purpose on life. This is one of the most influential and fundamental insights of St Ignatius that he teaches us in the spiritual life. Our deepest desires teach us about God and lead is to him, and can only be fulfilled by God. 

St Ignatius also particularly focused on an individual person centred spirituality, this became the Catholic counterpoint to Protestant individualism. As Catholics we all need to have a personal intimate relationship with Jesus - this is not a Protestant thing. But our personal relationship with Jesus must always express itself for the good of others and change society. As members of the Church, we are not isolated individuals- we are soldiers in the army of Christ, united together under his leadership. We have a common enemy and a common goal, to fight against evil and to win the world for Christ. 

May St Ignatius inspire us and help us to always choose the greater good, to do all things for the glory of God. 
































































Saturday, July 29, 2023

He calls you by name



Today we remember Sts Martha, Mary and Lazarus - the friends of Jesus. 

This feast is a beautiful reminder of friendship with Jesus, and how much he loved his friends. All of us are called to follow Jesus, love him and be his friends too. We are known by Jesus, loved by him and called by name. When we are hurting and sad, he too weeps with us as a true friend (John 11:33-36). 

Jesus wept to show his humanity (John 11:35), because our emotions have been redeemed in his Incarnation. As true God and true Man, he had emotions like us and feelings. So he wept and cried when sad. But in doing so, our sadness and crying has been transformed and sanctified. Now even our tears have meaning. 

He did not weep because he thought he lost Lazarus (John 11:4). He wept because Jesus felt compassion for his friends and cried at seeing Mary and Martha so sad (John 11:33). He also wept because of the tragedy of death as a consequence of sin. Sin kills and destroys. 



Martha often overlooked in the Gospels due to the other famous passage where she is upset with her sister Mary sitting at the feet of Jesus but not helping her with providing hospitality to their guests. But she ends up being reprimanded by Jesus for not choosing the better part and worrying too much (Luke 10:41-42). But in the story of Lazarus she is the one who had faith in Jesus (John 11:21-27) and who tells Mary her sister that Jesus is looking and waiting for her (John 11:28). 

Friendship with Jesus allows boldness and honesty. Both Mary and Martha gently reprimand him “if you had been here” then Lazarus would not have died (John 11:21, 11:32). Only someone who was a real close friend could’ve had to tenacity and guts to almost reprimand Jesus for not being there. They had sent a message to Jesus when Lazarus was sick, asking him to come, but the Gospel tells us that Jesus deliberately stated behind extra days without rushing to Lazarus (John 11:5-6).  They were his good friends and felt let down by him, so they felt that they could express their disappointment in him without denying his authority as the Messiah and Son of God (John 11:27). 

This is the same friendship and intimacy we all need to have with Jesus in prayer, acknowledging our feelings and hurts without feeling that we are lacking in faith or respect towards him. How often have we felt like crying out to God “if you had been there” then such and such a thing would not have happened. We feel hurt and betrayed, let down by the one who is supposed to love us and care for us. But we can take comfort with Sts Martha and Mary that not only does Jesus weep together with us, but that he he also faithful to his promises to us (John 11:40) even when things feel lost. 

Once Jesus arrives at Bethany he goes straight to the tomb of Lazarus and tells them to roll away the stone covering the tomb. By this time Lazarus had already been dead for 4 days (John 11:49). 

Lazarus’s was called from death back to life (John 11:44). Not just back to life, but fullness of life. Jesus tells those present to unbind Lazarus from the burial cloths. We too are called not only by name by Jesus and back to life, but also out of bondage from all that holds us and binds us away from Him who is Life (John 11:25). 

Jesus says “Our friend Lazarus has fallen asleep, but I am going there to awaken him” (John 11:11). Then sets out for Bethany to find Lazarus and call him out of the tomb. He too is searching for us, coming to set us free and call us out of the tomb. But he calls each of us in different ways that are unique for us all. He knows us each by name. And as the Shepherd of his sheep, he calls us each by name, and waits for us to listen for his voice (John 10:27-28).  

Listen to the voice of the one who loves you, so that others too will see the love of Jesus in you life and proclaim “see how much he loved him!” (11:36) 



Sit at the feet of of Jesus like St Mary did (Luke 10:39) and imitate her attention to Jesus. Allow Jesus into your home and serve him like St Martha did (John 12:2) out of love and hospitality. Then like both of them, listen to Jesus when he calls you (John 11:28).



Listen to Jesus calling you by name - he calls out to you today

Calling you out of death to life
Calling you out of sin to holiness
Calling you out from bondage to freedom 
Calling you out of darkness to light
Calling you friend 
Calling you beloved 

Can you hear him calling?  







God is always present, here and now

How many of us often feel God is distant from us and far away? Or that we are desiring God but feel so distant from God because of our sins and struggles? 

The paradox is that God is always close to us, present at every moment of our existence with arms outstretched offering us love. But often we don’t have eyes to see, or the understanding to recognise God present to us. 

Being Catholic is not just about having a rosary in our pocket, a crucifix in our house and going to Mass on Sunday. These are all beautiful things, but they are not enough. Being Catholic means being a Child of God, a Temple of the Holy Spirit and united to Christ. It means that God dwells in us and we in God! 

All of creation is a reflection of God, He has left traces or footprints of himself in creation as signpoints that point us back to Him, the Source of everything. Our lives are the fullest expression of this, our relationships with others and ourselves, all somehow also reflect God and lead us back to God. 

Even our weaknesses and sins somehow mysteriously reveal God to us. The desires of our heart, our sinful and selfish ways - when understood correctly, show us something deeper that is missing in our life that only God can fulfill. God is always present to us, speaking to us and revealing himself to us, but we need to turn to Him and listen, we need to run back to His arms again and again and find rest for our souls (Matthew 11:29). 

All things work together for good for those that God calls for his purposes (Romans 8:28). That means that God can and will always bring good out of evil, that our biggest disappointments will one day be the turning point of grace in our life, that our darkest moments of shame and despair will somehow be revealed that was when the light of Christ shone out to us at its brightest. 

Whatever your struggles, however you may be experiencing life right now. This is your reminder that God IS with you, He loves you and is speaking to you. It might not feel like he is speaking to you or is present, but he is. Have faith and trust in His goodness. He is revealing himself to you right now in your circumstances whatever they may be, and with every beat of your heart calling you back to the intimacy with him that he desires to face with each and everyone one of us. 

Your boring, ordinary, day to day life should not be seen as separate from your spiritual life. As Catholics we have grace and the power of the Holy Spirit working in us to transform the world.  All creation declares the glory of God (Psalm 19:1) - that means you too. But more than just declaring the glory of God, we as people and especially as Catholics have that glory mysteriously within us. 

The mystery of the Holy Trinity dwells within us (John 14:23, John 15:4) and we are invited to share in that relationship between the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. We are inserted into it through our baptism and union with Christ. We need to remember this wonderful truth of the faith everyday, at every moment so that we can shine the light of Christ to the world and to others. That includes our colleagues, our families, the people who annoy us or even persecute us. We need to love them and pray for them, because this love is how we show them that we are Children of God and that they too are invited to share in the Kingdom to come and the victory we have in Jesus (1 John 5:1-5).








Thursday, July 27, 2023

St Titus - Carmelite martyr and mystic





St Titus Brandsma was canonised by Pope Francis in May 2022. He is mostly known for being involved in journalism in Holland and being imprisoned by the Nazi’s due to his public opposition to their ideology. Ultimately this led to him being killed in Dachau and so he is venerated as a Martyr. He has been proposed to be proclaimed the Patron Saint of Journalists, particularly relevant in today’s age of “false news” and ideological colonisation and cancel culture. The quote most commonly known and associated with him is the famous “Those who want to win the world for Christ, must risk coming into conflict with it”. 

However, it is lesser known that he is also a mystic in his own right, and as a professor he was also a specialist in Catholic Mysticism. His unique perspective as a Carmelite priest as well as a professor, meant that for him all spiritual life must be founded upon union with God. Everything else is secondary to this, but also must flow from it and lead back to it.

As I prepared myself to learn more about him before the canonisation, I found his writings on Carmelite Mysticism. These were a series of lectures he gave on the historical outline of Carmelite Mysticism, where he shows the spiritual heritage of the Carmelite Order and emphasises that although the Order is juridically divided into two branches -The Ancient Observance/Calced Carmelites (O.Carm) and the Discalced Carmelites/Teresian Reform (OCD), the spirituality is the same for both branches. He also situated the doctrine of Sts Teresa of Avila and John of the Cross, within the wider context of Carmelite spirituality of the Prophet Elijah, Blessed John Soreth, John of St Samson, Venerable Michael of St Augustine, as well as influence from Rhineland Mysticism. 

In these lectures I encountered the presence of St Titus as a professor, but also as a brother in Carmel guiding me in the spiritual life, and also as a friend. He effortlessly synthesises Carmelite Mysticism and shows forth the goal for which all students and disciples in the school of Carmel should aim for. These lectures, along with his lecture on the Divine Maternity of Mary will one day become standard classics in studies of spirituality and Catholic mysticism. The most profound concepts are highlighted and explained in a very simple way so that anyone is able to understand them and be inspired. 

For him, “prayer is not an oasis in the desert of life, it is life”. When we think about this, how often are our priorities the opposite way around? For most of us prayer is something that we have to find time for, that gets put into our schedule or that we turn to for comfort when life feels too overwhelming. But do we see it as a necessity, as something essential and the ground of our being? In the Carmelite tradition, prayer is relationship - it is not about  doing things for God, but being with God, enjoying the Presence of God at all times. 



This is the background to understand his bravery and witness in standing up to the Nazi regime in Holland, as well as his witness to Christ in the concentration camp and eventual martyrdom. He recognised that it is impossible to reconcile Catholicism with Nazi ideology, because he identified Nazi ideology as a form of paganism that was trying to resurface. This is why he not only refused to publish or promote Nazi articles in his newspapers or publications, but as the official chaplain to the Catholic Press in Holland as appointed by the Bishops Conference - he forbade all Catholic newspapers from promoting or publishing any Nazi propaganda. When a Nazi soldier told him he should have complied with the regime and allowed Catholic newspapers to promote the ideology, he responded by saying “We must object to anything or any philosophy that is not in line with Catholic doctrine.”

As he wrote in one of his letters in prison “Our Catholic principles are at conflict with their principles; the contrast of principles is there. For this confession I joyfully suffer what is to be suffered.” This public opposition to the Nazis and failure to promote their ideology in Catholic publishing is what led to his arrest by the authorities and his eventual death. He saw this arrest as an honour and privilege, not as a deprivation. 




He considered himself an optimist and this came through in his cheeky sense of humor. He was also to remind himself and see God’s Providence in all things, and was able to joke that now he was in prison and no longer busy being the Rector of a University and academia, so now in the solitude of his prison cell he was able to finally be a true Carmelite! He even found joy being imprisoned because as he writes in one of his letters from prison: 
I am already quite at home in this small cell. I have not yet got bored here, just the contrary. I am alone, certainly, but never was Our Lord so near to me. I could shout for joy because he made me find him again entirely, without me being able to go to see people, nor people me. Now he is my only refuge, and I feel secure and happy. I would stay here for ever, if he so disposed. Seldom have I been so happy and content.
Whilst in prison, he became known among his fellow prisoners for always remaining cheerful, even in the most inhumane of conditions. He was mocked by the guards for his faith as a Catholic priest, spat on and beaten often. Once the Blessed Sacrament had been smuggled into the prison and he was given it hidden in a tobacco pouch. He was beaten by a guard but refused to defend himself, as he kept his arms by his side to present the Blessed Sacrament in the tobacco pouch he was hiding. Afterwards in his cell, a fellow Carmelite prisoner tried to comfort him, but he smiled to his fellow prisoner saying: 
“Thank you, Brother, but don't have pity on me, I had Jesus with me in the Eucharist."


Although he was short and frail (5”6), he had an inner strength that shone through to the other prisoners. In his free time he would visit them, comfort them, secretly hear their confessions and give them secret blessings by making the sign of the cross over their palm. One Good Friday he famously began a sermon for the prisoners, but instead it turned into a passionate speech on suffering and being united to Christ in suffering. They fellow prisoners could not believe that this small weak man, leaning on furniture to keep himself standing up, was able to encourage them and talk about union with God with face shining, whilst they were all living in the horrors of a concentration camp. 



His calm demeanour and sense of humor was also noted by his fellow prisoners. Whilst proving them comfort or spiritual direction, he reminded them to pray for the guards who mercilessly beat them. When they complained him how hard it is to be able to do this, he wryly but gently replied “You don't have to pray for them all day long.". 



Finally the most inspiring part of his story and martyrdom, is the way he interacted with the nurse who killed him via lethal injection. She had a hatred of religion and had a strong dislike of St Titus. He told her that he often prays for her, and he asked her to pray for him as he handed her his handmade wooden rosary. She told him she does not know how to pray, beautifully he responded by saying “Surely you can still say, ‘Pray for us sinners”. The nurse reacted with laughter, but he told her if she prayed it often, she would not be lost. 

This nurse later testified during his beatification process about how gentle and calm he was. She did not perceive any hostility or hatred from him, even though he knew she had killed people via lethal injection and would be doing the same to him. She testified that she sensed he felt pity for her and that he was a holy man. She later repented and became a Catholic! Now that is what I call a miracle. In his last moments, St Titus evangelised this nurse through witnessing the love of Christ in his life, and through the power of the rosary and the intercession of Mary the Mother of Mercy. 















Sunday, July 16, 2023

Beauty of Carmel, Mary Immaculata



The first hermits that settled on Mount Carmel were former crusaders who had given up military life, and instead chose to live in allegiance to Jesus Christ as their Leader. They settled near the fountain of the Prophet Elijah to associate themselves with him and to be successors of the sons of the prophet that used to live there (e.g. 2 Kings 2:3, 5, 7, 15). They wanted to live a life of silence, contemplation and spiritual warfare under the guidance of Our Lady, who they chose as the patroness and Lady of the “place” to be their Sister, Mother, Patroness and Queen. 

Mount Carmel represented a garden of God, full of beauty - but also the battle against idolatry and false worship, where the zeal for the true Living God was victorious and the altar of sacrifice that Elijah offered was consumed by the fire of God. The vision that he later had of the little cloud (1 Kings 18:44) was interpreted as a symbol of Mary Immaculate, bringing Jesus the rain of righteousness (Isaiah 45:8). 

As a hermit in the Carmelite tradition, I am so blessed to be part of this unique spiritual heritage. We Carmelites are the “Brothers of the Blessed Virgin Mary of Mount Carmel” - she is our sister in the faith who guides us in prayer, leading us up the mountain of faith to her son Jesus. We belong totally to her, because she completely belonged to God so much that she was able to receive the Word made flesh (John 1:14) within her - she became the Theotokos, the Godbearer. So we Carmelites following Elijah and Mary,  zealously seek to stand before the Living God (1 Kings 17:1) and meditating always on scripture, keeping and treasuring theses things in our heart (Luke 2:19) - so we can continuously live in the Presence of God around us, among us, and more importantly within us. The Divine Indwelling of the Holy Trinity. 

Our Lady of Mount Carmel is not just a devotion, but she is a way of life. As her brethren and children, we are literally clothed in her and by her, through wearing her scapular. We are totally hers, this is why the old saying is that “Carmel is totally Marian”. We seek to be hers, united to her and with her always contemplating the Presence of God. But we also seek to imitate her silence, humility, faith, trust, compassion, love and hope. Even more than that, we seek to imitate her fruitfulness to the point that mysticislly we too can become Godbearers, bringing forth Divine life in our own lives, and sharing it with others. This is why to be Carmelite is to be a mystic. 

St Titus Brandsma teaches that authentic Carmelite mysticism is also apostolic - in the sense that our union with God is always fruitful and therefore must be shared with others. The flowers and fruit from the garden of Carmel must always be strewn upon the earth and shared with all. Shared from the heights of the mountain, or other times through descending the mountain and harvesting the wheat of God with the scythe of contemplation and preaching, as was a popular image among the early Carmelites. 

Belonging to Mary as a Carmelite is the perfect way for me to live in allegiance to Jesus and follow him as a hermit. It is my vocation and a blessing. Wearing my habit is the symbol of this belonging to Jesus through the hands of His Blessed Mother (Luke 1:48-50). Although I wear a black habit as part of monastic tradition as a hermit, my scapular is the brown Carmelite scapular. Everyday as I put on my scapular, I kiss it, and this is my personal prayer as I start my day: 

“Oh Immaculata, Our Lady of Mt Carmel & Queen of hermits - I renew my consecration to 
you this day. 
Help me to love Jesus with your holy and pure heart,
Help me to desire the Father’s Will as you desired it,
Help me to be full of the Holy Spirit, as you were full of the Holy Spirit,
So that under your mantle and clothed with your virtues - I may be united to the Most Holy Trinity. 
Amen” 

Mary is the most beautiful flower on Mount Carmel in the garden of God (Song of Songs 4:7, Isaiah 35:2), full of the Divine light. She enlightens by sharing that light with us, showing us how to shine the light and share it onto others too. She leads us up the path of holiness, ascending the Mountain of the Lord (Isaiah 2:3) to Christ Himself, the true Light and Life of the world (John 8:12, 14:16).  

All Carmelites around the world whether Ancient Observance, Discalced Teresian, Tertiary and Seculars, affiliates or hermits all sing today (and I sing everyday after praying any of the Divine Office) - this beautiful sequence/hymn called “Flos Carmeli” the Flower of Carmel, in honour of Our Lady of Mount Carmel … 

Flos carmeli,
Vitis florigera,
Splendor caeli,
Virgo puerpera
Singularis.

Mater mitis,
Sed viri nescia,
Carmelitis
Esto propitia,
Stella maris.

Flower of Carmel,
Flourishing vine,
Splendor of Heaven,
Virgin after having delivered Child
[Thou art] without equal.

Gentle Mother,
But knowing not man,
To the Carmelites
Bestow thy favor,
Star of the Sea.